A Reason to Wake Up
A career: 40 years
Schoolwork: like 20 tops
Art: as long as it's around for people to appreciate it
A person? Long as it takes for you to turn the relationship to shit.
I latched on to someone
Awoke every morning for them without even really realizing it
I had something to be excited for every single day
It didn't matter whether I got good grades or was happy at my job
All that mattered was "is she ok"
Nothing could harm me, get in my way
Cause I had comfort by my side without question
Now, each morning I slap my alarm with anger and contempt
I hate waking up to abruptness
Anxiety splits peace tea like the red sea
I arise slowly, far from fresh, to start another directionless 24 hour cycle of me
I don't wake up beside someone nor do I have a text to send the moment I'm conscious
I used to follow a familiar ride I drove everyday
Now I have GPS guiding me to an address I haven't typed in yet.
So, I don't know where I'm going
But I know where I've been
And I know the road I'll never travel again